The Onion Relationship Duality

25-Feb-2011 8 PM , TechM Colocation, Pune :
This one is just a thought that had crossed my mind some time back.. Penning it down just now.

The beauty of any relationship does not lie in the intimacy we share with someone but it is in the intricacy of the layers of emotion in that relation. A good relation is like that mixture of spices which brings out every single flavor of life. Love, anger, jealousy, pride and every other emotion that we feel is the result of our relation with people or with things, tangible or otherwise. We love our parents, get angry at our kith, get jealous of our colleagues, feel pride in our self.. But a relation which witnesses all the emotions, will be the strongest of all. And the only relation which has such multi-dimensional feeling is friendship.

Valentine Color Conundrum

15-Feb-2011 - 02.30 AM - Trying to figure out a multitude of things..

OK Guys... Finally the ordeal this last week was is over... Just for the people who don't know what I m talking about, the last week was the "valentine Week" aka "Love Week". It starts with some Hug day or a chochlate day or something like that and ends up with valentine's Day..

There are a few things which intrigue me about this time of the year..

Now from what I hear from people experience in the matters of love, it is supposed to be a very colorful thing but ironically you will see that the spectrum of colours in this love weeks gets reduced to just reds and pinks.. I mean if love is so colorful then why not depict it in rainbow colors..

Let’s look at the different people who get impacted by this “carnival” of love…For the couples it is very straight forward, they know what, where and with whom they would be spending the day. For singles as well it is very simple as they know it is a buffet and they can go and fish whatever they want. The people on which this time is the hardest are the people who are neither single nor in any relationship. The people who are living in uncertainties are the worst victim of this love-week. For them the spectrum of colors keeps moving from the lovely pinks to lonely grays. They don’t know whether the person who they want to spend the time with wants the same and also they cant be completely free to enjoy the buffet.

There are many more things about this love-week which baffle me but let's leave something for the next edition of this festival.. :)

And for me...? Well it was neither the Monday blues nor the pretty pinks.. For me it was just pure white. Like a white sheet of paper still waiting for to be written on..

P.S. White is the color you get when you combine all the colors in a rainbow..

Happy Valentine's Day all...!!!

Let's make a deal...

304,Cyber Residency, Hyderabad: 4 AM in the morning.. Down with fever and severe cold:

One day God came to me and asked, "What do you want my child?"

Surprised and perplexed , I looked deep inside my heart and thought of things I wanted.. After some time I said , "God, I want two things.. A and B".

God said, " No.. No , you cant have both of them. You can only pick one of them and I will grant your wish."

Both A and B were very close to my heart and my deepest desires.. But as I could choose only one, I said, "God!! Give me B."

"Al right! You will have B in a few days", said God.

Happy and content that I would be getting B , I started waiting for the day to come..

Just a few days before I was supposed to get B , God reappeared and said , " Son, You will get B very shortly. But are you sure want B..? You can have C if you want instead of B."

God had dug deeper into my heart and found a more stronger , more powerful wish..Something that I desired more than I wanted A or B.. Something which I had intentionally overlooked... He found C.

And this vicious circle continued..

Every time I made a choice, God would dig deeper into my conscience and find out something that I wanted even more than what I chose earlier..

And by asking me to make a choice again and again , it seemed he was playing the game of "Let's make a deal" in which even though the chances of winning remain the same , the contestant has to go through the trauma of making choices..

But I guess as the participants the only thing we don't get to chose is if we want to play or quit... We just have to play on..!!

The Big G of Globalization and our Virtual-Pangea

** Disclaimer** This is an essay I wrote for one of B-School entrance exams.. therefore it's more of my brain and less of my heart doing the talking here.. Sincere apologies!! :)

When Rudyard Kipling said that East and West shall never meet, he also said,

“There is neither East nor West, Border, nor Breed, nor Birth,
When two strong men stand face to face, though they come from the ends of the earth”.

These words have come true today, with people from East and West standing face to face, realising the importance of not only sharing knowledge, technology and culture with each other but also working together to achieve continuous improvement in all aspects of their socio-economic life.

With the advancements in the field of communication technology, internet and social networking, people across the globe have come closer to each other. As the non-renewable resources such as coal and petroleum start depleting and interdependence among countries become more and more important, the global leaders have realised the importance of establishing relations with each other. The cultural ties between the east and west also seem to strengthening with musicians such as A.R. Rehman, Zakir Hussain and Ravi Shankar making an impact on the west and at the same time we see western musicians are performing in countries such as India and Japan.

However, India and China are not the only countries in the east and neither is US alone the representative of entire western community. To achieve true globalization, we need every country and culture to be an equal participant.

I believe that we are on the right track and soon it would be as easy to learn Mexican or Egyptian culture as today American culture is. We would soon be a part of a “virtual-pangea” where physical boundaries would become meaningless.

The Chance..

You know how everyone says that life give you only one chance.. I just realised how true it is.

And also the fact that people don't see what life is offering them unless it is snatched away.

Just trying to think of the possibilities here.. why don't people recognize the good things they have in life??

Is it because they don't know how precious it is..? Or are they greedy to the point that makes them think that something better would come up?

I would say it is a combination of both, where unknowingly,under the influence of "greed",people tend to throw away so many beautiful things in life...

I have been talking about things here but i didn't tell what they are.. it could be anything and everything in life.. a good job, a nice car, a beautiful shirt... but these are not important. What is important from the perspective of life is the people around you and the emotions they bring.. the different kind of feeling they invoke in you..

Like a trustworthy old friend.. or a ur girl/boyfriend, ur spouse, ur parents...

So the big qs really is, how do we know whats "My Precious" ?? as with all questions involving heart and mind , there is no correct answer and neither is there a wrong one.

But there is one thing I do when i see myself in such dilemmas.. I separate myself from that thing for sometime and try and see how big a void has the absence of it has caused.. The bigger the void, the more precious the thing is...

And more often than not you will find the material things in life to be at the bottom of the list.. It will always be the people around you that you will miss the most.

There are two things here.. One is to Love someone truly and second is to know that you love that person.

We always naturally start liking someone and gradually that likeness grows into Love. But what doesn't come naturally is the knowledge that we love that person. For the lucky few this knowledge comes before all is lost and the person is still around. But for the rest.. well i just pray that they jump over to the other side. And realise the power of the invisible elixir of emotions and love that surrounds us.. the elixir that is refilled everyday by people who love us.. friends, family, loved ones.

And that's the chance I was talking about.. I hope that whoever gets a chance to love and be loved, should not let that go away and realise who is the one..

the one that fills ur heart with endless warmth,

the one whose absence feels like missing every breath,

the one whose presence makes everything devine,

the one whose voice makes everything rhyme,

the one who would never leave u ashore,

the one u love and the one who loves you back more..

I will end with a few famous lines and one of my favourites..

Chaahe jo tumhe poore dil se.. milta h woh mushkil se

Aisa jo koi kahin h.. bas wohi sabse haseen h..

Us haath ko.. tum thaam lo..

woh meharbaan..Kal Ho Na Ho..

Har Pal Yahan

Jee Bhar Jiyo Jo Hai Sama

Kal Ho Na Ho

Till then..

¡hasta luego!

The dream...

Tonight was a mixed day for so many of those age old sayings...



My manager asked me what my plans for future were and whether i was going to stay with Infy and whether I was planning for higher studies.. and i said yes.

Saying number one... Think before you speak.. and i was found guilty of making the same mistake again.



He asked whether I would be leaving Infy then.. I said yes if i get through a good college.. I will.



Saying number two.. Honesty is the best policy.. may be.. may be not. Honesty might be good for the soul but can be bad for your career.



I told him that yes I have plans for higher studies and would like to try once I go back..



When I asked him why suddenly this discussion came up.. he said he wanted to file H1-B for me as I was one of the top performers and there where projects in US...

Saying number three and the burden of realisation... arrow from a bow and words from mouth do not come back. It was so true for me tonight.

I had shut down down the doors to one of the biggets opportunities I would ever get.. I sacrificed it to my dream since last 5 years.. an MBA.

And immediately after the call I felt I have made a mistake.But it has so often happend to me that the decisions I have thought to be good for me have turned up futile.

Finally it made me wonder... Is life really about making the right decisions.. or is it about making the difficult ones and still have a smile on your face..and hoping against hope that the decision you made is correct.

The story of the crashed Hard Disk

Written: 7 AM , December 20,2008; Shantha's place , London

Remember that i had told you about how i got a signal to start a new life when by Laptop's HD crashed and I was left with nothing...(what a insanely sick optimist I am.. )

Even wondered what would the hard disk feel in such a situation...

would it be like what Jammie.. RD.. still didn't get it..? Ok.. Rahul Dravid is feeling.. being once crowned

The Wall once and now being dubbed as a cheesecake...

or would it be like a share market dealer in present times..who was playing in millions a few months ago and is now searching his pockets for that elusive penny.

Just FYI.. i m writing this in half sleep.. I want to sleep but just cant.I m already heart broken due to my HD crash incident and Peru's snoring is not helping matters here.. Moreover i cant go back home now.. just too lazy i guess.

Now i guess writing about sleep has given me the strength to fight Peru's cacophonous orchestrate snoring... i m going to give it try.. will finish this once i m back..

and one more thing before leave.. Jammie has struck back form with a crafty and patient century.. Well Done wall.. I wish my HD could do the same :(

bye.. cya soon.